Hey, I’m Ashley! I create bows and blogs over at Tulle and Grace and LIVE for margaritas on the beach. I have a handsome man, sweet little daughter, three precious pups and one cool cat. We all love to be outside and love to eat fro-yo. We are basically the your typical Norman Rockwell family. Want proof? Just LOOK at this instagram!
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Before I start this post I want to say – this is an account of my experience, everyone experiences pain and surgery differently, I am not suggesting how you should have your child, and I am not a doctor.
Okay now that’s out of the way….
(CHECK OUT PART 2 HERE)
I experienced severe anxiety throughout my pregnancy about giving birth naturally. I was absolutely terrified of possibly having to experience an episiotomy, the pain of contractions, and the thought of having to push out an 8-10 pound baby. I mean seriously. Oh my gosh, NO. However, if giving birth naturally was going to be the way I delivered Grace then that’s the way it was going to be and I was fine with that – I just wanted a happy, healthy baby. BUT when my doctor told me that I would be having a c-section the relief I felt was huge. It was like this whole weight had been lifted off of my shoulders!
Prior to going to that appointment where I was told I would have a c-section I went through birth classes. These weren’t your lamaze type classes, they were more informational. Like what to expect if you give birth naturally and if you have a c-section. I was made fully-aware of what to expect during a c-section and the recovery after. To be totally transparent, I left the c-section class really pissed off. Most of the women who discussed their c-sections described them as such a personal failure for not giving birth naturally, extremely traumatic and painful, and that it basically ruined their experience of having a baby. I. was. floored. Isn’t the whole point getting pregnant bringing a baby home and growing your family? Why was it such a horrific thing to have a c-section if it meant you bringing home a healthy, happy baby? I would like to point out that (1) having a c-section doesn’t make you less of a woman, (2) having a c-section doesn’t make you less of a mom, and (3) having a c-section is OKAY, it’s truly not the end of the world.
So for the c-section itself. I was to report to labor and delivery at 5am on August 25th. In all honesty, I didn’t sleep at all the night before. I was too nervous and excited! I even made Chris drive through town instead of taking the interstate just incase there was a traffic delay. Anyways, we get there and the receptionist processes my paperwork and calls the nurse to come pick us up.
We are taken to a private room. I consider this portion the pre-op area. It was here that my blood was taken to check for whatever it was they were looking for, I was given IV antibiotics and fluids – and the worst part and most embarrassing – I was shaved around my bikini line. All of that was done fairly quickly – over the course of an hour or so. During this time I also met with the nurse anesthetist – who I was most terrified of. The thought of getting a spinal scared me almost as much as natural birth. Looking back I am not sure why I was so scared because it didn’t really hurt! Anyways, the nurse anesthetist told me that the nurse anesthetist in training would be administering the spinal – FYI you can tell them no and I did. I wanted the licensed nurse anesthetist to do my spinal and no one else.
Once I met with the nurse anesthetist, my doc, and all of the ivs were completed it was time to go back to the operating room. This was scary for me because initially Chris couldn’t go. You have to go do all of the prep by yourself – meaning the spinal, the catheter, and the draping. I started crying when they rolled me away and begged them to let Chris go with me. I was basically being a big baby because the reality of it was, now that I have experienced it and know what to expect, it wasn’t a big deal at all. The first thing they did in the OR was the spinal. I feel like I was so lucky! My nurses were the bomb. I started shaking all over uncontrollably from the fear and started crying. The nurse that ended up staying with me until I went my final room with the baby, came in front of me, face to face, took both my arms in hers and told me it would be okay and said a whole bunch of other stuff I don’t remember. I DO remember how comforted I felt and how much the fear subsided. At the same time, the nurse anesthetist was behind me and barely touched my back while the nurse in front of my was trying to calm me down – I nearly jumped off of the table! He was so kind and was trying to calm me as well – which he did. After I was completely calmed down he administered the spinal. The first thing he did was numb me up – that was the most painful part. It basically felt like a tight pinch and then was over. After I was numbed he administered the spinal. My legs got very warm and tingly and then went completely numb. Talk about a bizarre sensation! Once I started to feel warm and numb they had me lay down on the table and then inserted the catheter.
|My gorgeous sister drove 10 hours in to be with us during the delivery. I am so grateful she was there! She was the only person from my side of the family that was able to be there.|
I honestly don’t remember to, too much about the surgery after that but here is what I do remember. The nausea hit me almost instantly and was horrible – as in I almost threw up everywhere (it came on that fast!). Luckily the nurse anesthetist was on top of it about giving me nausea medication, so that was quickly taken care of. Then I remember everything inside me starting to relax. I just knew that it would all be okay.
Shortly after the catheter was inserted and I was laying down, Chris was allowed to come in the room. I started crying when I saw him! I was telling him what to do with Grace if something happened to me – so morbid I know. The nurse anesthetist at some point asked me if I felt what he was doing – I didn’t feel anything and he said good because he was poking me with sharp instruments!
After Chris was in the room, my doc came in and the surgery began! All I really remember about the surgery was the pressure and tugging sensations. At one point they were pushing on me (at least I think they were pushing on me) so hard that I thought for sure they were going to squish my baby – I told Chris as much and he said not to worry that they were pulling her out! Once they got her out I didn’t hear her scream right away and looked at Chris and said oh my god is she dead! Then she cried and I cried and Chris teared up and the nurse anesthetist commented on how strong her lungs were ha!
Once she was out, they did their APGAR scoring, Chris cut the umbilical cord, and I was able to hold her for a minute or so. Then Chris and Grace were taken to the recovery room to wait for me. I think we were separated for about 30 minutes or so. It didn’t feel like it was that long of a time. When I was rolled into the recovery room the nurse that was so kind to me during my spinal immediately started checking to see if I could wiggle my toes and helped me get situated for proper skin to skin with Gracie Bell. I just remember this feeling of relief wash over me. She was healthy. She was okay. I remember crying with joy and thanking God out loud for giving us a healthy baby and for getting me through the delivery safely.
We were in the recovery room for about an hour – I couldn’t leave until I wiggled my toes. I was okay with this because it was private time for Chris and I and Grace. It was such a bonding experience for the three of us, just so incredibly special!
Part 2 is all about going into our final room of the hospital and what recovery was like for me once the spinal wore off as well as the first two weeks after. If you have any specific questions please let me know in the comment section!
(CHECK OUT PART 2 HERE)
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